Anxiety is such a familiar feeling for me that I sometimes don’t even notice a small background level of it. But I’m feeling it right now. It’s manifesting as the usual tension throughout my body together with the “butterflies in the stomach” – it’s a rather distracting sensation, it’s very tiring and it affects my ability to concentrate on my normal activities.
Why am I feeling anxious? Because I’ve got to make a phone call – personal business – and deal with somebody I don’t know on the other end. I know from experience that I can get it done but that doesn’t stop me getting the feelings every time. That’s why I prefer when possible to use the internet or speak with people face to face, one-on-one.
I used to be much worse – I was mentally and physically unable to speak on the phone to people I didn’t know. The anxiety would be so intense that it would cause me to shut down. Yes, I know it’s irrational. Most phobias are (I have arachnophobia and acrophobia as well). I’ve found that I have to be alone when I make phone calls – I can’t speak in front of anybody unless the person on the other end is well-known to me. In fact I can’t even make a call in front of my wife – I have to go into another room.
Other strategies I’ve developed to help me handle these situations include rehearsing the call beforehand – running through it in my mind and planning exactly what I’m going to say. This works best when I’m performing some structured task such as placing an order or paying a bill. Some things I just avoid – I never ring back on a missed call unless I recognise the number as belonging to somebody I know. I’m reluctant to answer the phone if it rings – voicemail is priceless in this regard. If it’s important they’ll leave a message and I can just listen to it and decide whether to follow up without being forced to interact with some stranger.
Doing all these things still doesn’t make it easy for me to use the phone. It makes it possible. People who don’t suffer from anxiety in these situations will find it hard to appreciate just what an achievement that is.
5 thoughts on “Phone Anxiety”
How appropriate. I did a blog post about using the phone recently, myself! Spent two weeks repeatedly calling a help desk, and no matter how much I prepared for each call, the person on the other end always asked for a different configuration of information, sometimes throwing me off.So many of your posts resonate strongly with me. It's a good feeling to see I'm not the only one who goes through this!
This is so spot on I had to laugh!My husband still can't understand why I have to leave the room and be alone when I make a call.Does it happen to you too – when you expect a certain person to answer the phone, and another voice answers – I go totally blank.One phone call to a unknown person or with an unpredictable outcome can ruin a whole day.
Thanks for your comments.@Chris: I know what you mean. I'm still amazed how I seem to have so much more in common with other ASD bloggers than with people I mix with day to day.@Cecile: Yes, a different person answering throws me off as well. All my carefully-laid plans go out the window – if I'm lucky I stutter and stammer out something approaching coherent speech but all too often the words won't flow.
Oh my gosh, yes, I know what you mean. I suffer from a great difficulty with speaking on the phone. I wrote about that on my own blog not very long ago. I would like to put a link to this article in my post that I'm writing today. Thank you so much for posting this. I like the steps you've taken to try and help manage it a bit more, but I do the same things as you. I just hate talking on the phone.
Thanks for your comment, Bird. You're more than welcome to link to this post; I'm honoured that you feel it's good enough.